Well my Spring Break flew by waaayyy too fast, tomorrow is back to work & back to reality! I've enjoyed being home with Emma, Tucker & Danny so much, I'm going to miss spending all day with them! But with my new outlook on things (thanks to the 15 things article) I'm also glad to be going back to work. I am thankful that I at least have a job & am making money to support my daughter. And saving up for her big 1st birthday in Disneyland too ;-) we have the hotel already booked which was the largest expense so now I'm just saving up for our meals & Emma's birthday festivities & presents! I absolutely cannot wait to be there & share my sacred, most special, most happiest place in the world with her!!! It will be just us & my family, I am SO excited to be there with them again!! I refuse to go with anyone who doesn't love or appreciate Disney as much as we do!! If anyone ruined my trip I wouldn't be able to forgive them... And if anyone ruined my time there with my child... I can't even imagine!! I would never speak to them again & most definitely not let Emma be any part of their lives! That is why I will only go with my family, my sister Denisse & an old friend of mine. It may seem ridiculous but Disneyland is the only place in the world where I am blissfully happy, it's a place that I respect more than anything because of the amazing man who created it. Walt is my hero, plain & simple. It's one thing I will be selfish about, Disneyland is mine & my families... If anyone else wants to be part of a Disney experience with us, we can take a Disney cruise or go to Disney World! Ok, way to get off subject.. But there are so many wonderful moments that I'm looking forward to sharing with Emma & that means that I have to work to make those things happen for us & I just need to keep that in mind everytime I think "ugh, I don't want to work today"! I took advantage of all of my time at home & tried to make the most of it, now it's time to get my head back in the game & focus on my goals!

So this week I only worked on Monday & am off the rest of the time while the kids are on spring break & I am loving being able to spend more time with Emma!! Yesterday I taught her how to actually jump in her jumper, got her up on her knees from her tummy annnnd taught her how to splash in the bathtub (now she goes crazy with it though lol) I can't even imagine all of the things I could teach her & help her discover if I was able to stay home with her everyday! It made me so happy & so proud yesterday, it was so amazing. Today we just lounged around all day. She's been pretty miserable because of her reflux but she's been having good moments. Tomorrow she sees a G.I. Specialist so I'm hoping we get more answers & better solutions for her acid reflux! I'm trying to enjoy every minute I can bring home this week, it's already going by far too quickly!

15 things...

http://www.purposefairy.com/3308/15-things-you-should-give-up-in-order-to-be-happy/

What a great article to read this morning! Perfect timing when yesterday I was thinking about how I need a change in my life. These are definitely things I can work on & give up to better my life. I love the one about excuses, I am always making them! This was a nice eye opener to read & I'm so happy that this was posted on a friends Facebook page today!

Happy Easter!!

We had a nice day, Emma was sick & grumpy but we tried to make the best of it & had some fun moments! Last year on Easter was when I announced to my family that I was pregnant & now we all celebrated with that little bundle of joy! It's so crazy how much my life has changed in just one year!

I can!

I feel a change needing to happen & it needs to start with me! No more "I can't" it needs to be "I CAN"! I'm tired of always putting myself down, it needs to change. I need to find a way to muster up some energy to start working out & to start making more of an effort with friends. I miss having my old friends & it's really gotten me depressed lately so it's time to make an effort to connect with my other friends. It will never be the same but I think I deserve some happiness in my life & I can do something about that! :)

Baby food!

We are making our own baby food for Emma & I love it!! First up are sweet potatoes, so far they have been a hit! I love knowing that I'm just putting pure & healthy food into her tiny little body, no extra sugar or additives or any of that junk for my baby!

Wow, Emma is four months old... This just really hit me! She's out of the newborn stage & onto bigger things! I start her on veggies this weekend, I can't believe it's time for that already!! Some days it still feels like she should be a year by now & others I just can't even believe its been four months already! I love being able to create photos like this, it's her as a newborn, one month, two month, three month & four (if only I could figure out how to put captions on the photos haha!) it's crazy to look back at how little she used to be! My growing princess!!

Oy vey.

Wow have I sucked it up at this whole blog thing! I just really can never find the time to post anything, my life is so hectic & so crazy as a new mom... I'm lucky if I get to shower twice a week! Now that Emma is getting older I'm hoping things will settle a bit but I'm honestly not seeing that happen anytime soon. I just discovered I have an app for this though so maybe that will make it easier since I'm hardly on the laptop anymore. Life has been a roller coaster. I've really taken the time to reflect on my life & what I want for mine & my families future. I'm making positive changes & I have been really happy lately. Now that my hormonesi have finally gotten back to a more normal level after the pregnancy & post partum it's been nice to feel human again & be able to think more clearly! Emma is still battling her issues, gas problems, reflux & who knows what else. She has her good days & her awful days. It's a struggle but again, with time, I'm hoping things settle with her. I'll probably start trying to post on here more often now, Facebook gets on my nerves & always ends up causing some problems. I want to delete it but I like being able to keep my family & friends far away connected. I guess well just see where life takes me! Here's to hoping I remember I have this app lol!